Well......Now You Know

cancer......  spelt with a small 'c' because it doesn't deserve to have a capital letter ........

I am now part of the statistics that report that 1 in 8 women are diagnosed with breast cancer thoughout their lifetime, and 8 out of 10 women are diagnosed in their 50's

I have breast cancer... its small, detected early by chance (i thought i had a lump in my right breast.. they found one in the left) and the prognosis is excellent.
However, I have had painful biopsies, a week of anxiety waiting for the results, and felt a strange feeling of relief when I was told the diagnosis.

The procedures I will have in a couple of weeks will take me to the other side of this, but it doesn't mean I'm not scared of what I will be going through.

I have had to tell my kids.. both teenagers, who seem to have taken it well, but I still worry that they are keeping a brave face for me.

As a Midwife, I know I will be a crap patient, I will not be passive and compliant...just like many of the women I care for who happen to be Health Care Professionals, I will be a pain.

I have tried the forums to seek some comfort and support, but all I see are other peoples fears and complex technical jargon that scares the bejeezus out of me, so this blog is hopefully going to help me get through the process, knowing that I can write my thoughts and feelings down..

This way I can say what I want, and its your choice whether you want to read it