Surreal... thats all i can say about how I am feeling at the moment
I have spent the weekend having some very bizarre emotions and situations
The first being.......not worrying about the prospect of my future, but thinking deep down that its not really happening, and I'm going to wake up... a bit like the last episode of Dallas in the 80's
Then talking to my GP about it whilst having a consultation about a back problem thats manifested itself.... poor man had to listen to 10 minutes of verbal diarhhorea on my psychological wellbeing and clinical fact
Saturday, I had a Facebook 'acquaintence' lower her head and walk to the other side of Oakham High Street in order not to meet my gaze... and nearly got run over by a hefty 4 x 4 in the process
I also seem to be taking a keen interest in cooking.... home made mushroom soup, Key Lime Pie, Stir fry's from scratch and marinated whole chickens... in a day (the family are happy)
I'm also really bad at losing keys.. so much that my husband can't trust me with them, after finding them in bizarre places like the fridge, the dog biscuit bin and down the back of the hall radiator
Maybe its natural distraction, or maybe I'm going barmy....
My 22 year old assistant asked me if i was scared the other day,, just came out with it!!! yes I am
It's crappy that someone would cross the street to avoid you, but some people simply can't deal with cancer - although it's not as if they are the ones suffering. Rest assured there are plenty of us who would cross the street to give you a (careful) hug.
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xx
Hey sweetie
ReplyDeleteKeep your eyes on the prize that there is another side to this and you will be there and looking back sooner that you might believe. There are tough times coming but you are strong enough to get through them and there are plenty of people who will not "walk by on the other side" who will fight along side you.
Kxx