Friday, 1 February 2013

The Tunnel Effect

So now I’m on the other side of the tunnel that presented to me on Monday morning

The tunnel which I expected to be dark and unknown, frightening and daunting.  

What I got at the beginning of the tunnel was a team of people who took my shaking hand, and led me carefully, guiding my path with the light from their hearts and their dedication to their work.

I was given choice, dignity and the right kind of empathy tailored just for me and how I was feeling.

As I expected, I fell asleep and felt as if I had only been away for seconds when I woke on the other side, and although I knew I was talking in expletives, I couldn’t stop, and they didn’t mind.

My post operative care was a haze....... but one person seemed to move at normal time around me when everything else in the world sounded like a slowed down vinyl record…..   a male Student Nurse…’J’….   , who's natural caring ability and love of his work shone out through my drug induced haze...... even to the point where I heard him ask my husband if he was ok with him checking the dressings on my breasts…..

So reassured was I …..I chose him to help support me when I had my drains removed…… 

As with any ‘busmens holiday’ Its difficult as a health care professional, not to watch what people are doing and ask questions….  I was treated with professionalism and humour and I am grateful for being treated as a ‘person’ as well as a Midwife

So now it’s the next hurdle.. waiting for the results of my Sentinel Node biopsy,  until then I’ll chill and take each day as it comes….

 

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